Grassroots Festival

So…. hello.
i have decided to change the way this blog is because im not real sure that hearin my opinion is something people are real interested in and its not something i think im so willing to give as i was before so i think these are going to take more of a direction of simplicity and pretty much me stating expieriences and how they went.

so this post is about the grassroots festival of music and dance. my frend and i went this past friday. first thing i did love it. i loved the music the environment plain and simple. but 40 fucking dollars my god almighty its cheaper to go to some amusement parks. eh but yah i love the fact that everyone seemed to be so friendly which from my experience is not very normal. my friend and i, no matter where we go we tend to ALWAYS get lots of dirty looks for seemingly no reason. and we got there around ten so really the only people there were the people who i would say are like hardcore into it but then once it got later probably around 4 or 5 thats when we started getting dirty looks and i believe that was because people were coming in from work and that they were there not really because there into the music or anything they had thee but more into the simply going. i dont know if that makes sense. but so yah i love hippies plan and simple. i thought it was amazing. if grassroots comes anywhere near you, you should deffinetely go because it was great fun.

ME

“Im not interested in age. People who tell me their age are silly, you’re as old as your feel”
-Elizah Arden

Fangirls

now i personally am a fangirl of many people. but i do as much as possible not to let it be known. i dont understand why fangirls like to flaunt themsleves around. there like internet groupies that no one wants. its always nice to have fans im sure but why obsess? all your doing is setting yourself up for disappointment.

useless.
there was obviously not a real big point in that… oh well

chick flicks

i hate watching “chick flicks”. it always ends with the underdog getting the guy so to say. and in real life that doesnt usually happen so instead after tons of time leaving the theatre feeling good and like you can conquer the world it came to that point around this time last year that instead of leaving with a good feeling i leave feeling terrible. you want something you dont get it. i dont mean to sound like a sappy 14yr old because i dont necessarily mean it in the same way as most girls(wanting the guy of their dreams). all i mean is i want something to go right not just with guys but in general.
of course “everything happens for a reason” i know i know.

abra

YouTube fame

ok so im beginning to think i should have posted this last night when i was angry because now i really dont care anymore. oh well.

So youtube fame. if you are a youtuber or you simply enjoy watching the youtube community well then u know what im talking about when it comes to youtube fame. now why is it that some youtubers like to think that they are better then they are? i started getting into the whole youtube community about a couple months ago… i started with cadegoestocolllege and then found daveyboyz through him and then i found jimmy0010 through him and then i found nerimon through him who i then found fiveawesomeguys through them so on and so forth but there are others that ive found. now i would have to say my favorite youtubers are jimmy0010 (GO There www.youtube.com/jimmy0010) and my second favorite is sxephil… go there as well. now i love these guys because of there humor, there personality and there really blunt but i dont necessarily think that there mean people especially not jimmy. no offense to phil lol.

so back to my anger. i was on blogtv last night watching cadegoestocollege’s live webcast(if you didnt see it im sorry for you) and then when that ended i went to another webcast. on the other webcast the person doing it i was not subscribed to but someone co-hosted and i was subscribed to them. thats where my anger appears. first off, i dont like people who do a webcast and then they talk to the people they already know pretty much the entire time. which is what they did. (sxephil does not do this). second, i was asking a question… and if i am in a chatroom and i ask a question and it doesnt get answered i will ask again b.c. if you’ve ever been in one on blogtv you know how fast they go. so this is what i did and i got a response but it made me really mad. it was something to the effect of it shouldnt matter to you so stop asking. and i know that your probably thinking im over-reacting… b.c. i think i did over react a little but then i thought about it and it still makes me very angry b.c. the way he said it made it sound like he was some superior being… which hes not. he acts like i was asking b.c. i wanted him in my pants , no sry but i think ill fucking pass. and thats where youtube fame comes in. i realized that he thought very highly of himself because hes popular on youtube.

just because you are popular on youtube does not make you famous in the world. i think the people who probably should be famous tend to a bit modest about how interesting they really are. but the people who arent and think they are i actually find to be quite boring…

i dont know if im making any sense.

ME

“its not a fashion statement its a fucking death wish”
-My Chemical Romance

living proof

bleh.
have you ever wanted something really bad but realized that chance has it your never gunna get it…(that sounded kind of cool). well im the type of person that when i want something i want it bad. i will throw a fit over things that most other people would find to be of little importance but for me practically everything i care about is extremely important to me. example. b.c. of the whole internet, iTunes so on and so forth thing now ah-days not very many people actually buy cd’s. me on the other hand, now im not crazy i dont buy a cd everytime i want a song. i, for the most part mainly use iTunes but as ive mentioned in one of earlier blogs the kooks are my favorite band and so im buying their cds… all of them. i already own the original copy of their second cd konk and i plan on buying the bonus version of konk(i call it the red album) and i plan on buying their first cd inside in/inside out and a bonus version of that if there is one… i dont kno if there is. now all my friends are like wtf would you do that if you can just get it off of iTunes. what they dont understand is that i care a lot about this band and so i NEED their albums to feel as dedicated as i truly am.(oh and i need to pay for them as well)

i probably sound like a kook myself at the moment but im hoping that at least some one understands what i mean(ok abra no need to sound all sappy).

on another note though what i really started writing this blog for is like i said i tend to get fussy when i dont get what i want(i dont mean that in a spoiled brat kind of way. i mean when theres only one thing stopping me from getting what i want and i cant do anything about it.) im a “dreamer” i suppose you can say. you could ask my friends and they could tell you i have my future pretty much planned out. idk what it is it just makes me feel better. but so when i want  something, uhm perhaps a guy? yah i imagine every part of it. which of course would lead to disappointments. As i am a dreamer i am also exxtremely down-to-earth and realistic. maybe even a bit more then i should be. i of course believe that if you want something bad enough you will get it. but theres always that chance that you wont. so instead of dealing with the disapointmeant i suppose i simply stay away from it and go on imaginging it in my head…

hmmm. i think i dream to make myself feel better but deep down i dont truly believe in it. does that make any sense? …im pretty sure thats not very good for you. i am a bit cynical though and i am pessimisstic. well i shouldnt say that i am but i know thats how i appear to people around me but inside im actually quite the opposite. what does this mean what does this mean… i dont know yet. but ill figure it out.

well i just realized i like to talk about myself a lot. so sorry about that. im really tired. 

ME

“this time were not givin up. lets make it last forever. screamin’ halleijuah. we’ll make it last forever”
“thats what you get when you let your heart win… i drowned out all my sense away the sound of its beating.”
-paramore

why?

i dont know why i have decided to do a blog today… what is the point? a blog is presumably writing in a diary but allowing whoever it fancies to read it.(pardon me if i am using words out of context ive been doing it a lot lately for some reason).

i mean the things i have written in my blog have been private, i mean obviously not too private but they have been my opinions that i care about. so what is the point in a blog why would anyone other then me be interested in hearing my opinion?

i of course DO know the answer to this but i was just thinking about this and it just appears odd to me that blogs are so popular to read and to write… why is it that would need to know what others think to justify our own interests and opinions… i dont mean this in a negative way as im sure most would take it. but just think about it… whenever you have a thought about something or find a new interest why dont you just keep it to youorself and treasure it alone rather then have to tell someone and discuss it with them. or am i the onlly one who does this? i am constantly thinking of something, i always have a new idea a new opinion so on and so forth… but instead of thinking it over with myself i find myself needing to discuss it with others… hm

ME